happy birthday to SPB President - Ryan.
happy birthday in advace to DEARIE.Shen Zhi.





you texted me,
asked me where am i
i told you,
i am out with my friends
you asked,
if you can send me home tonight.
my reply, i dont think is a good idea.
then i realised,
i had just woke up from a dream.
back to reality. it will never happen.
and it doesnt seems to matter anymore ; as life still moves on.




was busy like a bee at work.
26o8o7.
i am proud to annouce,
i am a staff of MUJI for 1 year and 1 day.
that makes it 366 days then.
and 368 days today.
(:
helped myself with launching of new LADIES WEAR.
Ian, Qin & Me and of cos' Jingli.
FATE LIM where are you!?


and guess what i saw?
Jian Hua got this...

its' the BLOODY N76 that i want.
=\


then i dont know why, i am so free on sunday evening at work
that i found this HERWORLD mag at the magazine rack.
and started to browse thru it.
and pages i found....

it reads, it takes a couple about 3 months to discover their partner's "real side" and 6 to 9 months for each others's flaws to surface.
i found it real meaningfully thou (:


seriously, i dont know if you can read this.
cupcakes!! priced $1.70 at Square 2. 4th Storey
anyone wants?? =\



being the new caramel addict,
i am proud to announce,
MUJI very own CARAMEL MACCHIATO.

fascinated!










training yesterday was alright.
136 or 138 cant remember.
with only 2 open frames.
what you expect with 2 open frames ; high score right?
but seriously, i dont know what went wrong.
FER. let's buck up for POL-ITE (:

ME AND MY BTTP
(: (: (: (: (: (: (:
let's be SPINNER partner (:
just suggesting only.
FYI.
when Karen used Fer's ball to spin down the lane, it's extreme nice ok
firstly because Karen is one of SPB's best spinner.
secondly, because DEARIE.FER's ball is SILVER.
marks my words. SILVER!
SILVER SILVER SILVER.
and do i realised,
SPB got such a big handful of spinners when Ryan threw all the spinners at lane 1 & 2.
tht has me,Karen, Sarah, Suai Kai, Chor Boon, Yusof, Jarrick & of cos Ryan himself.
8 of us.
more than i had imagined. (:



after training,
celebrated Ryan's birthday with the club.
CLUB PRESIDENT's BIRTHDAY, olright?
roll off for Chunming, Zul, Gab, Louis & the year 1 boy started.
while me,Fer, Karen, Sarah & Suai Kai started bowling aside.
shant say much about the roll off cos it supposed to be kept confidential till SATURDAY.
if ever asked, who i think will be in the top 6 for the roll off...
i tell you..based on last year's roll off...
as taken from SPB's blog//


2006/07 POL-ITE Team Selection Roll-OffsMens Category
(Top 6 Qualifiers)
1st - Raymond Wong (graduated!)
2nd - Kollin Seah(MIA)
3rd - Zulfadhli (roll off yesterday)
4th - Ng Tiac Pin (graduated!)
5th - Alvin Tan (Quit)
6th - Yeo Nai Kiang (graduated?/MIA?)



well,
not in order of merit,
and it's wild guess. - NOT BIASED.
Ryan, Louis, Joshua, Kollin (if*), Yusof, Dalbert & Firdaus.
sometimes, we gonna gamble with our thoughts.
heard Louis bowled 200+ for 2 games for total 2 games is 400+.
OMT.
retarted Chunming bowled 180+ and got 4 in a row in his last game but ended up open frames and spares after that.
OMT.
guys are guys. boys are boys.
they bowl tht well. OMT OMT.
wonder when could i ever reach 180+.
OMT.
and you know what,
the radio aired Daniel Potter's Bad day during the pre-roll off, and i turned to Dearie.Fer.
what a wrong song to play now.
and someone really got a bad day for the early roll off.
shant say.
opps.
did i just mention that i gonna keep my mouth zip about yesterday early roll off?
OMT.



after training and after roll off ;
headed down in Gabriel's car to MS along with Fer, Ryan and Elisha.
passed by CBD ; tht Sakae Sushi.
think only i know what that means by tht Sakae Sushi.
i didn mean to think about it; it just cut across my mind.
had Dian Xiao'er for dinner.
almost all the comm people were there except Eleanor, Darren, Chi Chong, Yusof & Wee Hong ; including Dalbert.
so total 11 of us.
Ryan, Elisha, Gab, Char, Josh, Jiehao,Fer,Chunming, Biondi, Dalbert and of cos me!
seriously, i had to highlight the dishes.
ESPECIALLY THE ASSORTED MUSHROOM WITH VEGs.
remember i post abt my lunch at Dian Xiao'er at Causeway.
it's disastrous, remember?
only Shitakae Mushrooms but yesterday i recieved BUTTONS mushrooms & Shitakae.
(: (: (: (: (: (:
Ele joined us.
had desserts treated by President at Esplanade.

what's that?
marshmellows crepe.
with gummy bears, vanilla icecream & bananas!!
$10.
keen to try suckao` next time if i am there.
(:
a great dineout dessert place for all couples.
ambience that fits into the romantic theme of yours (: (:



the great people i hang out tht night.

all look left. i dont know what is Ryan & Gab doing?
dont bother to find me and fer there cus we were taking the cameras.


(clearing throat!)
first time in my life; first time i introduce my comm people
opps!

Dalbert ; Elisha the VP aka MOOMOO aka Chiobu ; Ryan the president ; Gab the Logistic
hmm. Dal's not in the comm. SORRY.

Eleanor the T&D ; Chunming the QM ; Biondi the Logistics ; Joshua the T&D ; Charissa the secretary
and i totally forgot about Oyster.Jiehao the alumini co. opps!
and not forgeting myself and DEARIE.FERINNA. =D
but at least a group photo thou...





tht's my day.
training on thurs.
i wish training was on every alternate days ; provided tht we dont need to pay.
OMT.
OMT.
selections on saturday.
(:


be back real soon with selections results.
anyone wants help me out tht day =x
cus i am the only female bowler free tht day ):



sleep tight people.
honey sweetdreams to all (:
bless*//
OMT waking up at 6am again tomolo ):
ciao. adios// bring me my caramel macchiato or caramel frappe please, anyone (:

when 4 turtles went out to the sea
only 3 came back.
read between the lines.
but it doesnt really matters anymore.



let bygones be bygones.



went out with char,joshua, fer & fer's godbro yesterday.
town-ing
fer bought a puma watch.
and i had such a real hard time just to find one WHITE shorts.
finally spot one at Heeren.
OMT.
seriously, i am going low on cash, can someone kind enough to spare me some??
if the reason for being broke is due to birthday presents, then my current assets gonna be negative hundreds by end of september.
especially when you have your OWN BIG CLIQUE OF FRIENDS WHO ARE CELEBRATING BIRTHDAY IN SEPTEMBER, and the upcomings ones right huh?
28th Aug - Shenzhi
16th - Brother Andy
18th - Alex's
21st - BAOBEI.RINA.
25th - Casey
1st Oct - Brother Martin
FYI, we still owed Junhao a present.
OMT OMT OMT.
cash dried up.
pockets drained.



met Fiona at Jurong Mrt around4.
headed down to Jurong Entertainment to meet the people.
Geena, Lingwei, Mailin & the main character - WEI SHENG aka MR KEVIN - my son.
LOL.
kbox-ing.

cakes of mutiple flavours.
and the cream puff.

the state of him after being smashed by creams.

the 'nas'

weiwei,mai & birthday boy.



after kbox, headed to geena's place for dinner along with ahma.
CUP-NOODLEs.
crap around.
suddenly, geena thought of something.
i had to agree, it still remained a mystery
and what lingwei said is correct ;only she knows what happened then.
in 2 months time, it gonna be 3 years.
but i just felt it's just a year ago.
everything.
it's just like the moment i recieved IM, sms and phone calls about it was just a year ago.
the moment when i stepped into the school that day.
welcomed by lingwei's hugs & tears.
the counselling session.
the tears that everyone weeped.
each of us had regretted not spooning her with enough care & concern.
and the 'if' factor exists.
and how on earth can you imagine her to.....when the day before you see her laughing bubbly with her friends.











as for today,
sporty!
went cycling with eleanor & karen at ECP.

the trios.

3 x 19 = yet acting cute.

cycled from mac to ski park to bedok jetty to sailing club to NSRCC.
can someone please count the distance i cycled today?
i am lazy to count from streetdirectory.com
OMT. what the hell.
we went into NSRCC bowling alley ; but i am the only one who got the urge to bowl.
):
aww!!
and i spotted this on the notice board!

saw tht name!! 1st - HELMI CHEW!
yeah! my assistant coach sounds nicer than junior coach
WTH. time to buck up my english OMT. OMT.



and i got this idea which came by my mind and gave me a knock.
CHALETS.
well, bowling camp is cancelled.
OMT.
boring hols for me ):
i want to have my own bowling clique chalet.
it's an order!!
opps!






for the following context,
can anyone just treat Grandmother Sihui is talking crap, please
i just need to vent out things which i cant say it out in public.



as i said before,
alot of people stood by me this few weeks.
supported me with their encouraging words and sort.
even people whom i hardly get in touch show me their care.
some even pop-ed by like Jack in the box.
THANKS and THANKS.
not that i am promoting myself that i had such a great networks of friends. OKAY!!?
just that i am really thankful with these people around especially those whom i really nearly lost touch with or not so close with. at least they do remember me.
(seriously, i felt so touched that i am now almost on the brim of crying ; or maybe because i am making my emo speech here. LOL)
I DONT KNOW.



i remember i told nicole this about a week ago.
memories are memories.
they can only be remembered but not re-done.
the feelings will never be the same.
even a couple went to this certain place and romantically, the guy did something that really touches the girl's heart. IT IS MEMORY.
even you will to go back to that same place, the guy will not do the same thing again.
all it left is just plain memories.
MEMORIES.


recently, i realised a handful of people came back to my life.
as if i had sat on the time machine and get back to years ago.
but the feelings are no longer there.
FRIENDs & MEMORIES.
one of them, disappeared from my life as a best friend, someone whom i always talk to about my problems, someone who i treated like my brother, my talking crap partner.
gone MIA for almost 3 years.
suddenly, resurfaced at my tagboard a or two weeks ago, sms-ed me and i shared my problems like i used to. (i m not pin-pointing you.)
can you bloody imagine this person MIA for 3 years and i hardly see him linger around my area when he live so bloody near to me. like, less than 100 steps away from my block to his.
FRIEND, where have you bloody been?
=\


the others, i shant say much...
but i wanted to apologise to some people whom i just spit vulagrities at in MSN.
cus i am totally pissed off ; my heart is so uptight now.
dont ask me why ; i am not going to say here.
just damn fcuk up
SORRY TO MARTIN, CL, DANIEL, CASEY, ANDY, ROYSON, NICOLE, JOEY, XINGLIN & RINA.
I just felt so fcuk up.
really i am.
things are easier said than done, people.
this is not what i wanted.
3 turtles.
i am laughing at my own creation of quote that i set in the starting.
3 turtles.
but the other didnt come back.



was talking to one of 10 people mention above.
and this is what i got.
sihui : you know what?
A : i think i know what's going to happen. i support my buddy this time. blah blah
sihui: NO MAN, you dont understand.
A: what the issue?
sihui : blah blah blah
A: blah blah blah
sihui: blah blah blah
A: i'm not u, can i decide for u? obviously no..so ITS ALL UP TO URSELF!
sihui: i know
A: u go ponder over what i say,u should set YOUR OWN priorities right 1st
sihui: studies, friends & bowling (can you imagine ; kanna scolding yet stil can crap with people)
A: rmb, set ur life right, set ur priorities right...(blahblahblah)... i advise u not to, in case u suay suay _____ again, alot of sai kang for us to handle also.
sihui: walao!
A: that time we nearly need to look that person up and confront him, is this sai kang anot? IT IS!



wth.
ok i think i made it sounds as if i kanna scold by my friend.
haha.. sorry my friend is just advising me huh!?
ya, i admit, i always create lots of shyt problems and my this group of people always there to clean shyt for me =x
opps!
hais.
i felt i am so ...
whatever.
FRIENDS is all i ever want.
when some people dont understand what i mean.




woots
it 1.35am.
i going to roll off to bed.
OMT. so late!
*zoom*

tagged by lingwei again x)


1.(the person who tagged you is…)-LINGWEI!
2.(your relationship with him/her is…)- friends.
3.(5 impressions you have of him/her…)- (i)talk very fast (ii)laughing at high pitch (iii) friendly (iv) bubbly (v) fierce!
4.(the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)- was with me when i had high fever during n level prelim. CARE FOR ME LIKE ONE MOTHER (:
5.(the most memorable words he/she has said to you)- hmm.. should be this on my tag - a guy who make you shed your tears aint a good man! the next one will be better !
.6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will…)-have lots of laughing days
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)- DUN THINK SO.
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will…)- OMT
9.(if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…)- OMT
10.(the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is…)- haha.. WAKE HER UP =x just kidding
1.(your overall impression of him/her is…)- bubbly lil girl who never fails to cheer people's life up (:
12.(how you think people around you will feel about you)- SENSITIVE and is SBS. (FYI,sibeisensitive)
13.(the characteristic you love about yourself is…)- LOL. hmm.. i duno but people tend to say my silly actions can cheer someone up . =(
14.(on the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is…)- impatient
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is…)- can i skip this question ; cus i really dunO.
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them…)- thanks for everything you guys had did to me to make me happy for the past few weeks (:
17.(pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)-
1)Ferinna
2)Charissa
3)Shuhui
4)Annabel
5)Xinglin
6)Daniel
7)Peifen
8)Peiping
9)Junhao
10) Nicole

(who is no.6 having relationship with?)- i dont know the girl's name but i know got one 'shan'
(Is no.9 a male or female?)-MALE.
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)- they dont even know one another
(What is no.2 studying about?)- Dip in Marine Transportation.
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)- yesterday night.
(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)- POP. chinese
(Does no.1 has any siblings?)- one brother
(Will you woo no.3?)- she's my darling (:
(How about no.7?)- she's my fate!
(Is no.4 single?)- ERM. take it a YES.
(What’s the surname of no.5?)-CHIA.
(What’s the name of no.10?)- Nicole Ong
(What’s the hobby of no.4?)- Laugh like mad & Gossiping with me (:
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)- they dunno each other!
(Where is no.2 studying at?)- SP
(Say something casual about no.1)- MY BTTP.
(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?)- AS A BUDDY.
(Where does no.9 live?)- Chua Chu Kang
(What color does no.4 like?)- OMT; i dont know.
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)- they dunno each other.
(Does no.7 likes no.2?)- they dont even know one another.
(How did you get to know no.2?)- SPBOWLING
(Does no.1 have any pets?)- her bf got one dog.
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)- OMT. what a question.



-End of Quiz-




I found a switch
Turned it on
Hit the ditch
And carried on
I was so near
Now you're so far
Are you quite sure
Just who you are



O IIIIIO
you could chose a friend but you don't seem to have the time
O IIIIII
wonder if you ever get to say what's on your mind
O take a little time, take a little time



I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all



Remember me, I used to be the best time buddy
Who you couldn't wait to see
But getting old, it takes its toll
And hearts getting broken lead to people growing old


O IIIIII
Im flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side
O IIIIII
Im gonna be the one who makes you stop and realise
You could have it all
We should have it all

Yea I wonder where you been
Yea I wonder who you seen
And I hope you find your train
When you do a living and hope it's all it seems

155th post.
happy belated to adeline, tammy, junhao.(:
happy birthday to weisheng aka erzi & melyvn (:



the final straw of hope ; i blew it.




HELLOS.
i am back.
FREE FROM EXAMS; finally!!



absent myself here for a week or so.
did anyone miss me? =\
anyw, lots of things happen to me.
amazing stuffs to share with you PEOPLE.
(: (: (: (: (: (:



went mugging with my studies kakis at
(i) mos burger sembawang ; of cus
(ii) changi airport
(iii) mac marinasQ

and i finish my exams!!
PMM.ACCOUNTS.PM1
no more of these.
GOODBYE PMM, ACCOUNTS & PM1
HELLO BMT, ECONS & BSII.
PMM was alright, seriously. despite SOMETHING HAPPENS.
it was just the life cycle calculations that gonna kills my entire paper
and it gonna be the Balance shyt Sheet and Profit & LOST Loss Statement that kills my Accounts paper.
the 2 words that were being strike out plays an important roles on how badly i am doing for my Accounts. D**n!
what will you do if your Balance Shyt Sheet does not balance ; and the difference is of $90K.
YES! it's $90,000.
OMT.
i just got toooooooooooooooo lazy to recheck, needless say do.
OMT.
PM1 is alright. nothing much kills. just that I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I CANT GET ANY FACTS INTO MY HEAD THIS MORNING AT ALL!
walao. but everything has a price to pay.
the state i am in this morning.

the one in blue : my tests/exam schedule
in red: SEMBWINDS Concert Pamplet.i still kept it! since 2004.
in green : MY GUI!!

my ultra messy table. ):






* * *



met nicole, joan, jasy, rina, jieyi, yvonne, jimmy, ahtee, wl and vin in the train.
down cityhall. while they left for dinner ; i met my darlings (:
catch fireworks.
i mean catch a glimpse of fireworks along with one of Alicia's friend.





more over here at Dan's flickr please scroll to the right ;
not left unless you want see his other photos. (:






* * *



as mentioned earlier on,
i went mugging at C Airport.
thankful that Alicia bought me doughnut from Pasir Ris.
GUESS the flavour!?!?!?
.
..
...
..
.
MILO!!! (:

HEARTS.
tht aint chocolate ; milo filling.
(:



and since that day, I DARE TO DECLARE ;
I M IN LOVE WITH CARAMEL MILK/FRAPPE.
(: (: (: (: (: (:
bought this drink.
2 of us being too kukoo.

pineapple + orange + banana.
*WOOTS*







* * *




masses of crap things happens in my life recently.
i find it weird/amazing.
and all it happens on this computer screen.
(:

i signed in my old account for msn ; and i got this.
new record! =x

was revising PM1 tht night;
when daniel PM me in msn.
dan: so what is PM1? research?
me: construction work mag. (somesort!)
dan: wa. then next time you come out will snatch with blanga sia.
me: ...
dan: construction worker ma..
me: ............
and he drew me that.
!@#$%^&*



can you read what the teacher wrote?
-this is how my eyes look after marking your paper.-
so sarcastic.
i spot this from Yvonne's blog.
as taken from her lit paper x)








* * *




suppose to go gym today with my darlings.
but due to some lil'reasons we didnt.
):
went to alley.
sat there with them till Joshua's mum came.
5.10pm.
she came and drove Josh,his friend & me to SICC at Thomson.
bowled for 6 games ; 3 before dinner and 3 after.
my outcome for not bowling almost a month.

first game : 158!!! NEW RECORD FOR ME as a spinner of cus.
4 strikes.
3 spares.
4 open frames ; my dream!!
(: (: (: (: (: (:
tally up - 158.105.108.117.163.106.

4 strikes.
4 spares.
3 open frames - WOOTS!
i love bowling!! - self satisfaction.
average : 757/6 =126.167.
bad thou.
picking 4 high games - 546.
1200 - 546 = 654.
meaning which, if i really want to break the record. Fer needs to bowl down 654marks in total for 4 games.
and to reach last yera POL-ITE results. Fer has to bowl down another 454 pins.
MIGHTY MIGHTY FER (:
Fer, mug on your last paper and we shall mug on our new record x)
I AM MISSING MY TURKEYS.



something real stupid happened to me just now while bowling right away dinner
which i think Josh & his friend were laughing all the way.
MEAN!
not that i bowl wrong lanes.
not that i use house ball to play and get a strike.
not that i used my ball to play straight.
well, i just FORGOT to change my shoe back to the bowling one.
and i fell after releasing my ball.
so i was wondering why on earth i fell then i realised i haven change my shoe.
kinda stupid.
and Josh was like thinking when did my bowling shoe turn creamy with green shoelaces from a BLACK shoe with WHITE shoelaces.
OMT.
such a disgrace; thankful that we are the only 3 souls bowling in the alley then.
OMT OMT OMT.







* * *





for the following context, i just wish to say a BIG THANK YOU to those who stood by me and shower me with their care and concern for the past 1 week.
and i know some are just dying to see what i gonna blog about this incident that took place 1 week ago. well....
(: (: (: (: (: (:
seriously, i am alright, fine ; totally fine.
we both called for a stop.
i voiced it out verbally
he voiced it out non-verbally.
that's what we both wanted.
i know what you guys are thinking.
he aint my boyfriend ; and never he will be.
just some complexity relation involved.
pardon me...
mind me ; PM1 just ended.
therefore, the word "complexity" occured here. =x
beautiful ending ; they called it.
they said i am foolish to do it hours before my PMM paper.
i know kinda stupid but it just get into my mind and i told myself i had to do it RIGHT AWAY.



from today onwards, there is not gonna be a 'him' in my blog anymore ; as for now of cos.
a 'him' which i spent seconds to italic it, bold it, change the font, the size and the colour to my desire blue.
no more.
no more small footnotes/messages i left behind every single entry i typed.
no more.



i had thought about it days before i mentioned it.
friends had asked me not to give up;
against all odds, i never listened.
while some supported me.
some even had asked me to give up way before i wanted it.
some were very against us being nearly an item.
you named it, i might got it too.



for the past 2 months,
i cant deny i had great time with him.
from shopping to movie to dinner to mugging.
and my birthday.
thou 8 out of the 10 times we ended up quarrelling.
there wouldn be anymore of him shuttering me up and down the mrt tracks.
no more any of his shadows to be with me for dinner.
no more any of his shadows to be with me for shopping.
no more rebound trains.
no more nudging in msn.
no more longhours of call
no more long strings of sms
no more care and concern from you
no more lunch on tuesday afternoon.
no more of him physically by my side.
no more of us travelling to school on the same train.
no more of this and no more of that.
and when we said goodbye to all these.



if anyone asked me now,
if i was sad.
i will tell you, i felt sad, a lil heartbroken, never regret my choice.
and not to save any ego of mine,
seriously, i had not shed a single tear yet since that day.
not a single one.
2nd Aug was the last time i ever cried and it gonna be the last time i ever ever cried because of you.
when everything has a time we bound to say goodbye to.



ciao.
i know you wouldn be here anymore.
and it doesnt really matters now.
(:
i am leading a life of mine as before.
(:



stop rubbing sweets / honey to my wound.
it wouldn heal.

i think i gonna blog about this ; as promised to lingwei.
and i think it's something i must share to people - GIRLS.
who are living in Yishun,Sembawang and all the way to Marsiling.
muhahahahaha!



ok, i shall begin ; this story is told by Ivy when i met her ytd.
M18 i shall grade.
oh my fcuking hell!!
according to her,
she was traveling to work in the morning, boarded the train at Admiralty.
then, right to her was a lady (age undefined) wearing damn low cut when you can see half of her boobs.
opps*
so this business man in early 40s, was standing infront of Ivy and the lady.
then from what Miss Ivy Ng saw was, the guy immediately stretch his hand into his pocket.
DO WHAT I SHANT EXPLAIN.
and seems like shaking things - according to IVY.
ok whatever.
so Ivy cant be bothered with the businessman so she fall asleep.
*dingdong* SOMERSET.
so she was so scared she missed her station ; she woke up.
and then tht guy just ok it JUST pull out his hand from the pocket.
and the pants IS FREAKING WET AT YOU KNOW WHERE!!
and he used his briefcase to cover up.
tht's totally GROSS eh.!
for those innocent souls who are 18 n above yet dun understand what action i am talking.
example, ANNABEL LIM PEI KOON.
please GO ASK UR BROTHERS or FATHER or BOYFRIEND!
OMT~!



i totally dont understand what he gonna do at work
when his pants is wet like this.
and it's only in the morning. 7+ 8+.
OMT. OMT. OMT.
i told mum just now over lunch ;
lucky she nv puke out her lunch =p
she was gross out.
totally.
OMT.
OMT.
OMT.
and is like from admiralty to somerset is about 30mins
freaking hell!
OMT.



tht's it.
and i think MR DANIEL CHUA shall be doing the same thing now or maybe go surf some kukoo webby and start doin the same thing, right. DANIEL?



me: go read my lastest entry !
after few mins,
dan: f*** ; damn it!
me: ?? *thinking tht he scold me*
dan: crazy a**, mast in the train, siaobo?
me: ya
dan: and u shoot me! omg, i under innocent soul den leh.
me: u sure u innocent mah
dan: ya la
me: you mus be doin tht thing now right?
dan: no lor
me: i nv say what.. n u koe what i toKin abt.
dan: i feel abit gross oso
me: no one say is P**
dan: i nv say is P** i say beat aeroplane.
me: haha..same la
dan : *change msn to innocent party*
me: u will feel gross meh?
dan: gross la. if i do oso do alone or go home do.. tht is gross.on the train do.. is despo!
me: OMT OMT OMT.




OMT.
i gonna start mugging PMM.
it's on tomolo.
and my proposal for Comm dinner on 27th (:
OMT
OMT.
OMT



before i mug and do the proposal.
had to thanks lingwei for a lil' msg at the bottom of her lastest entry.
(: thanks *muacks*
i will try my best - be fine.
*cheeros*
smile

stressed = desserts
tht's what my friend told me last night over a call.
when you are stressed, just eat dessert and you might be feeling better.
remedy to mine?
so i gonna try.
and i tell you again if we met again. (:



just treat my last entry as junk.



i am sorry;
intended to scold more but i know i had to respect my readers as well.
hais.
the words "f" & "nb" & others nearly flew out of my mouth ytd night.
thanks to few people msged me ; called mi.
i felt much better after tht 3 hours call.
this wasnt my longest record.
i was laughing when Royson told me this,
they said you cant be provoked, once do so, we wouldn know what you will be doing, running down the street shouting and start chopping people or doing something else silly.
well, thanks Roy for the joke.
but i had to admit what Slayers used to say about me is true.
tht's the old me.
even Kiat's friends said tht to me.
even people from NCHS band said about tht to me before.
tht's past memories.



well, my intention to blog today,
partly to apologise for what i wrote here.
maybe you people can treat tht i am just a stress out person typing rubbish.
=\
or maybe just treat tht manutd draw with reading at opening match tht makes me this fcuk up.



secondly because as everyone knew i am having examsssss now.
so i decided to stop bloggin for the moment
before anyone bombed my tagboard.
actually want temp. off this blog for a special reason ; shant say much here.
maybe i return once after my paper.
or maybe after POL-ITE selections and i shall update about who enter Boys Team (:
or perhaps when dearie.Zhi celebrated her bdae days after my last paper - PM1
or maybe if something emo / me being too stress i be back.
or maybe if something great happens i'll be back to announce.
(: (: (: (: (: (:




talking to daniel now in msn.
such a retart yet horny friend i hav.
dan : (=
me: ?
dan: how is it..still sad arh
me: *blabber some crap*
dan: i damn sian ; damn du lan..
me: ...why
dan: ytd night lor, my damn kor. banana 1. go bring the gf home. sleep dun wan to sleep.
for the following context, please registered urself as NC16 or else you cant be reading. (:
me: he always bring his gf home arh
dan: dont do what make out
me: LOL
dan: den banana.. the bed shake make me cant sleep ; somemore double decker ; tht's the prob, cant stand it
me: omg!!
dan: *cold* still laugh
me: really funny
dan: i gonna tell my mum abt it. it's like so late ..you 2 wan make out go outside or get a hotel or wad. dun come home ma..
me: how u koe they doing tht. ur bro ORD le meh?
dan: he sign on. can sense de ma. this kind of thing
(ya, what can you expect from horny daniel)
me: no lor, maybe they just playing
dan: i heard someone kissing lor
me: can hear de meh?
dan: yes
me: can meh?
dan: i know they tried to make it soft, can, the frenching sound
me: kiss gt sound mehs? those like snake sound arh? french kiss where got sound de!
dan : got when they suck! they nid to take out got those sucking sound.
me: french kiss need suck de meh/
dan: very hard to explain next time i french kiss you, den u'll know
me: shyt u man, i ll tell shan.
dan : =p walao! just kiddin la



WTF is wrong with daniel chua yi long!!
=\
horny as usual after 1 year.
*snore*
i felt i am so innocent after he told me this
i mean, i didnt know so much!
aww!!
felt as if i am annabel. so kukoo!!
OMG!



being tapping my fingers/nails on my study table ; as if i am playing the piano.
fcuking hell.
my piano skill rust.
the result after watching secert.
haha.
fer go watch secert again with weilong.
and i quoted this from her,
there were plenty of sweet mutterings.
but there's one that i can rmb clearly,
it was when the main actress, lu xiao yu, asked jay,
"why do you like to play the piano single handedly?"
and Jay replies ,
"so that i can use the other hand to hold your hand"
so sweeeeeet right !!! :D



i was talking to one of my girlfriend ytd
shant name her.
she was talking about her couple ring tht the bf gave her.
and she came up with this logic.
and i cant deny to agree with her
i shall be raising both hands of mine to agree.
the black ring.
it may looks nice ; colour dont drop off like silver rings did.
but she said, it was somehow a curse
i am not scaring any of my friends who is also having BLACK rings ; couple rings.
just i had to agree to a LARGE extend.
what i see in friends, either close or not so close.
i observed and had listen stories about their relationship.
and she concluded,
BLACK rings had actually caused couples to quarrel more.
so this morning, i bumped into another one of my girlfriends in msn,
who is also having the black rings
i asked her and told her about this.
she was like laughing, and said tht she will wan to believe but if she ever told her bf,
the bf might be angry and started throwing temper, YOU SEE!!! throw temper!!
but i also cant said much here right.? hahaha!
the black ring!! ):



had lil story to share,
all along i wanted to blog about it but it kept slipping off my mind.
it doesn matter who i heard it from ; really.


so the story goes,
we shall named the girl Mary ; and the guy Paul.
they are a couple and classmates.
as usual you know, leading male is always handsome and all.
but i feel this guy dont look charming but according to some people, he is.
tht's not the main point, anyway.
so they were in the same class.
Paul is a enthusiatist member of the school various sports club ; imagine the muscles and all.
OMG! diao!
ok.
he is of cus always seen hanging around with bunch of girls
and even in class.
thou they always sat tgt in class next to one another.
go have break tgt.
but somehow halfway thru tutorial, you always see Paul went to the other side of the class to discuss questions with the other girls BUT NOT GUYS.
and i felt pity for her.
i dont know why ; but i just feel pity for her.
and i think Mary had never voice out.
and my friend and I had always seen Mary so down/emo.
not until tht day when my friend saw them tgt - them alone.
tht the only time when my friend really see Mary smiles.
i dont know what i am writing but just pen-ing down my thoughts.
sad for Mary? ya i am.
conclusion : think it urself.
hais..



hump!
gonna mug PMM.
when i know nothing abt chpt 5-9.
results from playing laptop ; chitchatting ; daydreaming.
hmph!
i duno what am i studying.?
it's tues. GELARE?




bye all.
be back real soon.
when i said goodbye.

mark a line across your commitments & your wants/desires.
what is or who is your commitments?
what are your wants or desires?
define them.



for the following context ; might be abit sexist.
pardon me.

heard lots of stories recently.
BGR.
felt like crying.
felt sad for the girls
what is BGR?
why is it making the people around me so emo now.?
and why do they have to plaster a smiling face infront of their guys.
and when the guys seems so ignorant.
they show care and concern for them yet what they get in return is some cold words.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE GUYS RECENTLY?
throwing temper as if they suffering from PMS.
ignored sms like they never recieved.
dont give a damn to ring up the girls.
controlling them with who they hanging out with and restricting them things to do.
i pity them.
hurt as if i am one of them.
fcuking hell!



i just got a string of vulgarities to yank it out;
but i cant. i know i just scold one
got so much things to say yet i cant.
bottled up and i felt so down.
really need someone to talk to.
):
label it stress.
label me nuts
label me emo.
label me a fool.
got nothing more to say.



just feel tht one day i gonna breakdown.
and no one will care.
not seekin attention here, but just need some space to voice out not entirely.
i tried to bottle everything i know.
and pretend.
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend.
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
is all i could do.



to avoid people get hurt
to avoid people get angry
to avoid their relation to drift


i want to say things out ;
but i am afriad of all these.
again, i am thinking bout people's feelings; care about theirs.
in the end, i suffered here in this room ; crying and no one knows.




#lostinherownwonderland.
wheneverythingseemssofuckedup.

now its my turn to say this,
so near yet so far.



browsing thru friendster
and saw this ad.
which really excites me.


a card with with no minimum income requirement.
best for tertiary student!!
well, i saw citibank market this card outside Dover Mrt tht day.
and i AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ON CLOUD 9.
being begging dad for it.
and now, i manage to secure tht web for him to browse.
waiting for his agreement (:
and this card partners up with many stores i patronise .
*woots*
Delifrance.
Fish & Co. (shall try one day)
Famous Amos.
Gelare!!!
Haggen Dazs
Jack Place
Just Noodles !!!!!!
nydc
OUT OF THE PAN!!!! (freakinghell, i miss CREPES)
Cafe Cartel
TCC!!!!!!!!! (oh my freaking god!!)
Cathay Cineplex! *woots*
Flash & Splash
Fresh Imp
Heeren Shops.
NUM!!!
the rest ....hmm SONY ERICSON stuff/gadgets and more.
LOOK UP URSELF.
muhahahahahahhahahaha!!



stomach upset for the past 12 + 5 = 17 hours.
oh man!
burning sensation.
): ): ): ): ): ):
wat the..
i dont even know what wrong with my body nowadays.
hmph!
a moment ago, i was freezing cold on bed.
now i am freakin hot / perspiring from top to toe.
aww!!



did a research on bulimia & anorexia.
they said i might be suffering from one of those.
but the symptons ARE NOT WHAT I AM EXPERIENCING.
): ): ): ): ): ):
People with anorexia have an intense fear of being fat. When a person has anorexia, he or she hardly eats at all — and the small amount of food that is eaten becomes an obsession. A person with anorexia may weigh food before eating it or compulsively count the calories of everything. It is not unusual for a person with anorexia to also exercise excessively in an attempt to lose weight.
SEE THIS.
I KNOW IT MYSELF THT I M THIN. I WANT TO PUT ON WEIGHT.
SO I AM NOT SUFFERING FROM ANOREXIA.



Bulimia is a bit different from anorexia because the person with bulimia doesn't avoid eating. Instead, he or she eats a large amount of food then gets rid of it quickly by vomiting or taking laxatives.
OK! I DIDNT DIG MY THROAT TO ALLOW THIS FOOD FALLS.
THEY FALL OUT BY THEMSELVES.
aww!!


Warning Signs
Anorexia:
-drops weight to about 20% below normal (i drop by 1 kg)
-denies feeling hungry (sometimes)
-exercises excessively (bowling!!)
-feels fat (NO!)
-withdraws from social activities (NO!)


Bulimia:
-makes excuses to go to the bathroom immediately after meals (i nv! it is the drain/grass patch)
-eats huge amounts of food, but doesn't gain weight (happens all along after my puberty)
-uses laxatives or diuretics (what's tht)
-withdraws from social activities (NO!)



so what am i classified as???
.
..
...
....
...
..
.
i think i am just suffering from exam stress ; believe it or not.
i told JingLi tht other day at work
i told Fate.
i told him.
i told YANN.
i told Lingwei.
it is always around this time tht i vomit after meal.
Dr Koh said she is suffering from exam stress (:




back to work.
shall go mug my accounts.
hais.
hopefully i can get them in my brain.
*stomach groaned*
my breakfast! (:
cheesecake!!
ACCOUNTS.




my body is turning hay-wire.
just like how its owner is going to.
i miss you.

i am just contradicting myself again.
i just want a space to voice out now.



selfish.
selfless.
which am i?
being a Gemini ; is tht the way.
spilt personality?



i admit i am selfish to you.
yet so selfless to think about how people might feel,
about me ; bout you and bout us.



one of my friends did tell me years before,
which had always inked on my mind for years.
why i always thought of other people feelings when they dont even think about mine.
ended up, i am the one being heartbroken and they just enjoy their hey-days as if nothing ever happens.



i got nothing more to say.



who else can i say those 3 words to ; other than you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO.CHIA.





got tagged by lingwei (:
sabotage =x





Here are the rules:

1. Each blogger must post these rules first.

2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names

.4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog









8 facts about me:

1. dont ever ever provoke me!!

2. choco mint freak

3. you want me to giv you some basic respect ; then first you must bloody hell show me some respect

4. SHOPPING QUEEN.

5. i love my frens (:

6. if i ever hate tht person ; i am sure to show him/her attitude. and they bound to know i hate them.

7. i am 6993days old on this earth.

8. i love bowling (:





My 8 VERY UNLUCKY PICKS:no tagging back!!
ferinna. annabel. peiping. charissa.
deziree. fate. daniel. yvonne




and this lil post caught my eyes.


if a girl cried infront of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
if you take her hand,
she will stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go,she couldn't go back to herself anymore.



A girl won't cry easily,
except infront of the person
who she loves most,
she become weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.



Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hand firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.


Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you ruin her life.


when she cry infront of you,
when she cry because of you,
look into her eyes,can you see and feel the pain,
and the hurt she's feeling?





THINK.which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
infront of you and because of you?
she cry not because she is weak,
she cry not because she want sympathy or pity,she cry,
because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt and agony
have become too big a burden to be kept inside.



GUYS,think about it,if a girl cry her heart out to you,
and all because of you,
its time to look back on wat you have done,
only you will know the answer to it.



Do consider it,
cos' one day,it may be too late for regrets,
it may be too late to say "i'm sorry".



To my friends:dont do this to a girl,
you may regret for the rest of your life,
maybe in your life,
she's the only one that LOVE YOU THE MOST!!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL.
(: (: (: (: (: (:

rot at 1600.

i felt i am not a true singaporean.
by right, i suppose to wear red.
and since tues i being wearing dark colours.
tues : khaki & black shorts
wed : black top & shorts
today : for work - black top n jeans. after work - black top & black shorts.
where is the RED man!!!???
met justina ytd on the way to school,
joked with her.
ME: why never wear formal for presentation?
J : teacher say no need mah.
ME:then why never wear red?
J: cus i not pri/sec school student.
ME:then why you never ask why i never wear red
J: ok..why you never wear red
ME: cus i dont have red top.
J: DIAO!!!

just came back from work.
vomit again.
content: imagine some chop omelette with milo.
gross eh?
meet new colleages.
all asked me the same questions.
even aunt jane.
hais...
do i look like i have one?




happy for nic ; he's back.
going out happily dating tonight by the bay.
glazing fireworks tgt.
with the rest ; slayers & rainbow & their boyfriends ;
18.
excluding this ONE blogging now.
17.
obviously duh!
I AM SORRY ; tht i am not able to attend the outing again and again and again.
maybe you guys are used to me being not physically around for the past few years.
having say much, you all know why i dont want to be there.
every year ; the same old reason.




just now talked to lingwei
she tot of having one clique chalet during the hols.
*looking forward to sep & nov*
(: (: (: (: (: (:
then came a IM.
my fren told me he just tag my blog.
so i went to see.
"fren": hahas...its lik which side r u on...r u trying to say go for it or give it up...for words contradict...
and i was like laughing out loud.
D O T S.

* * *

ytd went out with YANN.
got my paid ; shop ard.
Levis launch new jeans.
black skinny denim.
i love it.!
she loves it too!
$189 (:




got a drink from STARBUCKS .
caramel macchiato.
walked down to suntec.
she was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO shocked tht suntec is so nearby.
wth!
had lil' chat bout life's on.
and i got so FUMED when she told me something regarding 2 of my close friends.
shall blog about it later.





shop around at suntec.
dropped by citylink for some stuffs.
spend all my cash at tht shop.
went down to MsQ'
shop.
drink.
shop.
LATE NIGHT SHOPPING!
20% discount everywhere.
some even raise to 42%!!!!!
YANN was blaming me for not TELLING HER THT THERE'S LATE NIGHT SHOPPING!
aww!! *bite*
of cus, when this shopping QUEEN went SHOPPING ; more things are added to her TO-BUY-LIST.

1. tht GUESS hangbag!


2. tht SILVER puma shoe.

and i am TELLING you DEZIREE WONG YIM PENG!
there's late night shopping every last FRIDAY of the month!!
and the next shall be LATE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!
AWW! DONT SAY I NEVER MENTION!
I GOT PROOF!! aww!! *bite*



and she is very annoyed when i told her this,
"I NEVER GO INTO NUM TODAY!"
"I NEVER ENTER ADIDAS!!"
especially NUM.
cus i kept repeating till cows come home'

eventually, we still have a place call HOME.
so, headed home ; met edwin & andy at amk.
home sweet home! (:

* * *

back blogging at 2043.
well, as mentioned, i chatted with YANN ytd.
bout someone.
so i got to know this thing ..kinda outdated news.
but i just fumed upon hearing.

i just want to state my stand.
i am not going to tell who that girl i am talking bout.
but if she ever ever reads this blog of mine,
just want her to know that she is being too silly & childish.

here the story...
someone bully my birthday girl.
she bossed around
played around
fool around
act as if she is DAMN BLOODY close to my friends.
but the main point is THEY DONT EVEN LIKE HER
furthermore, they dont even know her.
and my birthday girl scolded fcuk!


and this bossy girl just pretend nothing happen.
i feel it is damn childish ; YANN agreed.
i was like WTF.
YANN claimed its jealousy?
i said NO!
she is just testing your limits.
she wants YANN to rebuke on her.
she just want YANN to be angry
being angry will only make her felt mighty.
tht's my point.

and YANN.
rmb the conversation i told you about that caused your phone to slip out of your hand.
tht's the thing.
i felt everything is linked up.
a show for us to fit in.
they are the directors.
YOU GET IT!!!
*boiling in rage*

* * *




just came back from Sun Plaza via 313.
watched Secert with Ivy, Kor & Ahma.
boring national day.
have to agree with Ivy tht we are getting older and the feel of being in the fest is not like before.
*yawn*


and i tell you WHAT!
SECERT IS DAMN NICE, OK!!!
you all should really watched it.
9/10. i gave for this Jay Zhou's directorial debut.
i cried ; not once but twice.
i love you ; do you love me?
just this line tht caused me to weep.
better than how i weeped for 200 pounds beauty!
OMG!
200 pounds beau for me is like crying water tap.
OMG!



i wished i had this kind of boyfriend in real life.!
*gasp*
BUT OF CUS NOT THE PART WHEN JAY ZHOU GO KISS ANOTHER GIRL!
bloody hell!
the movie is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo SWEET like honey.!
and you get to see how Jay parrot girls' talk.
SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!




AH TEE just msged me.
after fireworks, it's fondue time! tempted? msg sent by beloved & baobei's request.
WHAT KIND OF GOOD GIRLFRIENDS I HAD? uh.?
tempting me?
ITS OK. I CAN HAVE MY FONDUE TOMOLO!!
and i swear !
p/s: birthday girl treating SAPPHIRE for FONDUE.
again, i am not going. (:



so again,
YANN told me Singapore Flyer opens next year on 14 FEB.
yes 14 FEB. valentines'
i want a date, man!
maybe i am just passing a remark again.
as avid readers know, i had been telling people in my blog tht i want sit for tht DHL balloon for times and times. but i just failed to be there.
despite Casey intended to treat me for my birthday this year.
despite invitation from friends.
but for some reason, I AM GOING TO BE AT THE SINGAPORE FLYER
of cus not on valentine day itself. (: (: (: (: (: (:

4 down ; 4 more to go.
in 13 hours time, it shall be 5 down ; 3 more to go.
and i shall start preparing my shopping list when i go shop with my girlfriends aka shopping kakis.
calling out Lingwei
calling out Yvonne
calling out Nicole
calling out Rina
calling out Alicia
calling out Annabel
calling out Shen Zhi
calling out Peiping
calling out Deziree

new clothes for new sem.
new bag for new sem.
new pencil box for new sem.
new shoes for new sem.
maybe new jacket for new sem.
=x

* * *




was chatting with Dan.
and he said this,
Singapore Fireworks Celebrations 2007
17 – 18 Aug 2007, 9pm
Marina Bay
my reply,
yes!!! i wrote in my blog too
his reply,
good.i prepare go there like ard 1pm
my reply,
u chop for me kk
his BLOODY GIAM reply
ee..dun wan..u go wif who ..comfirm go wif ur bf ma
my BURNING reply,
no bf!!! u the 4 or 5th person askin me today..
ARGH!!

dont understand why people just dun believe i dont have a bf.
do i hang a sign on my face tht states
I HAVE A BF
ARGH!!!
if that so, what about Bel and Alicia?
okok.
i admit i have a bf.
tired of all your askings.
ARGH!
this is his photo.

ciao.
mug on freaking CRS; as if.
bath ; yes!!

when nudging becomes our way of saying hellos.

hellos.
i am back again ;twice in a day.


blog while waiting YANN.
blogging kills time.
*tick tock*



i so bored.
yusof came online; so i asked him
"anything for me to do for the camp?"
his reply, "i dont know who to assign the jobs to."
my reply, "me!! i am very free now!!"
his reply, "now only?"
my reply, "and next few days.."
his reply, " hmm not sure..."
my reply, "so how is my plan for the nightwalk thing?"
his reply, " i have to know who is the i/c for nightwalk."
D O T S.



i am freakingFREE!!
my body feeling hot.
why isnt there a STARBUCKS in Sembawang?
i want my double choco.
i want my machiatto
i want my mocha frappe.
i want my slurpie - kinda out of topic thou. ):
OF CUS I WANT THT EXTINCTED BANANA JAVA CHIP./
can someone please beg STARBUCKS to bring it back?
=\



i want go bowling!!
deadly i want!
guess what i was doing once i reached home.?
no one will have ever guess it right.
i took my old ball out under my table next to my bed.
i started spinning it.
idiotic me ; huh?
Dearie.Fer if she ever see this, she think her BTTP is gone nuts.
and Ryan will say this to her,
please kindly find a replacement for ur doubles events in POL-ITE. =x




shouting out to all :
anyone free 17 & 18 aug.
asking for a date ; please?
pretty please?
please?




he's alright ; getting better i suppose.
mugging his CS proj.
me? still perspiring since last night. =\
i think i know the reason why he cant get to sleep this early morning.
a secert ;
cus he saw me vomit out my supper =\
GROSS eh! tsk tsk!
once, i vomitted infront of him at my voiddeck and tht was gloomy dark where there isnt any streetlamps.
but ytd night was different ; i was vomitting next to a traffic light.
he must be totally GROSS out that he might had nightmares once he shut his eyes.
*snore*
no wonder ; he wished me bad nightmares.
it is all link-up =x
i hatee you, boy


i am bored.
YANN. where on earth are you?
*snore*



keep my body cool list.
my b&j icecream.
tucked in after blogging.
cold bath.
swam in after blogging.
cold drink
BANNED wef sun.
aircon.
lazy to on. save $ ; fan on (:
starbucks drink
later at town ; but did i just mention i was banned from cold drinks moments ago?
YOU.
busy at the moment ; i suppose.





but i love you more.